GOD has layed on my heart to share with all of you a childhood prayer that I thought was only a dream which I now know has been heard by our Father in Heaven above in bringing unity and strength back in the family of GOD. I pray that whoever reads this brief message will feel the love of GOD and the presence of His Holy Angels that are all around when we seek Him with repentant hearts for our children’s future. May GOD speak to your heart and inspire you in this brief testimony of restoration below to step up to the plate in the mirror of GOD for our children’s future.  

   As a child I used to cry at night for my parents that fell to the deception of Satan in chasing what the world has to offer and forgetting my brother and I at home. My mother struggled to keep my father planted and eventually she could not hold on any more because my earthly father showed no signs of taking root in the love of GOD for his wife and children.

 My mother endured through many heartaches and physical pains that brought blood and financial loss in her love for her children. As the older brother at the age of 9 I would cry out for my earthy father to leave my mother alone in his temper that raged out of control. I ‘ll never forget when the separation of my parents finally came in how they never set  us down in love to explain.

 Yes, we were young in years but we were their children that deserved some type of love and compassion. In my mothers fight for survival she lost her footing with the Lord due to the winds of sin from my father and the temptations of the world.  She fell away from church and godly people because she did not want to deal with her situation in the mirror of God due to the pain that she was carrying on the inside. The ones that she did surround herself with from the church lived a lie because they were only someone else in disguise. 

 As a young child without the discipline of GOD in my home and having parents that placed their responsibilities on others this led to a state of heartache beyond words for the love of GOD that I knew in my heart. Many nights I would sit out under the stars and cry out with such a pain that was ripping my heart in two due to our broken home and feeling all alone. 

 All I wanted was my earthy fathers arms of love around me that would teach me how to behave and to be a better man. Without the love and discipline of a godly father figure in our home this opened up the door for Satan to spiritually scatter each of us into the unknown. My younger brother surrounded himself with female figures that allowed a spirt of deception to fall upon him homosexuality because no one in the family was strong enough to speak the Truth in the Word of God and simply tell him this,”The road you are taking in homosexuality is not right by GOD!

 The same applies to me as well in my parents not standing on the foundation of GOD as a young child and helping me in my state of rebellion. Without the instruction in the Word of GOD being taught to us in our homes this only led to further pains and darker days ahead. I’ll never forget the clear nights under the stars with my heart crying out in pain and especially the nights at my grandparents hiding in the field with tears that fell like rain.

 But today 30 years later and through a hard journey of seeking the love that I knew in my heart I can honestly sit here today and tell you that GOD has answered my prayers and turned my tears of pain into tears of joy that no man can explain! Not only has my life been restored but my mothers as well along with many others that God has placed me around. The Lord has taught me wisdom that no school can give and restored me with a beautiful wife and two loving children that I pray never have to journey the roads that I have traveled.

 I praise GOD today like I have never praised GOD before because I know my real Father in Heaven and I realize that as a parent we are only given our children as a gift with a personal responsibility to help guide them in the right directions through the love of Jesus Christ. It is our place to stand on GOD’S  Truth for our homes to stay intact for our children’s future and when we fail to do this is when Satan will destroy what we have been given.

 With this brief testimony it is my prayer as a father, as a brother and as a son to spread the Truth of  how God can restore us when we are willing to face our wrongs in the mirror of God with repentant hearts for our new life to begin through Jesus Christ. What a journey it has been with dreams that I never thought could be reached but God has shown me that nothing is impossible through Him when we truly believe and we are willing to endure through the hard times in order to reach the good times.

 If you have a heartfelt dream of wanting peace and experiencing God’s unconditional love then may I encourage you to never give up or lose hope! For when we learn from our past without allowing Satan to take us down in it further is when God will show us the Way to rebuild and strengthen the foundation from which we stand. 

 The Lord says in Malachi 3 that if we will return to Him that He will return to us and that He will restore our homes with blessings beyond our imagination. I stand today as a humbled man of GOD in telling you that GOD’S Word will not not come back void when we learn to apply His instruction to our lives and obey HIs Word.

 It is my sincere prayer that America WAKES UP to the TRUTH of GOD for our homes and our nation to be restored for GOD’S glory and not our own…Amen

James A. Harrison

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